Saturday, July 30, 2011

Timmy's birth story

The past two or three weeks leading up to July 25, as I'd been telling my mom and anyone else who asked, I'd been feeling better than ever.  After a few chiropractic adjustments, my lower back pain was almost nonexistent.  My energy level was up a bit, and I was feeling like, even though I was eager to have a baby, I wanted to make the most of these days beforehand.  I wanted to do fun things with the girls like go swimming.  I was still enjoying my every-other-week pedicures.  I'd been taking walks the last couple nights after the girls' bedtime, now that I had my father-in-law at the house.  On Sunday evening, July 24, we had dinner at my friend Brandy's house, and it was such a nice time.  I had some spicy things to eat, like the neighbor's homemade salsa, and I remarked as I tried Brandy's mango salsa, that I'd heard mango was a labor-inducing food -- not that I really believed any of that stuff.  I still don't.  I took a walk that night after the girls went to bed.

In the wee hours of the morning, around 1:30, I awoke to contractions that were mild but just enough to keep me awake most of the rest of the night.  Not only that, Timmy's activity level was off the charts.  It was like a storm in my belly between his movements and those of my uterus.  I was very annoyed, rolling with no small amount of difficulty from one side to the other, trying to get comfortable.  For awhile, I timed them and they were about six minutes apart, but then they slowed back down, and became shorter.  I figured that once again, my body was thinking about labor but not sure about it yet.  This had happened the previous Monday morning too, and all the contractions had wound down by morning.

I was not surprised when, after very little sleep on this Monday morning, six days before my due date, I woke again cranky and still pregnant, occasionally contracting. When I went to use the bathroom, I noticed (TMI warning) a little of what's known as bloody show. The contractions would go away, then they'd come back and be five minutes apart, and I didn't know what to think.  I decided I might be in what is known as "early labor," but had never experienced myself before.  With both the girls, I woke up at 2:30 in the morning already in active labor.  Early labor was something I'd only read about.  I'd heard it could last for days.  I emailed Tim with the subject line, "Maybe today?"  Lucky for us both, he had nothing better to do but stand by and wait for more news.

Still, I called my midwife to give her the update.  She said that it sounded to her like I was in labor just from the sound of my voice.  She also said even though it was early, she wanted to just come see me that morning.  I was happy to have her come help me figure out if I was having a baby soon or not.

In the meantime, I decided to treat this early labor as a gift, a luxury of extra time that I'd never had before.  When I'd woken up in labor with Annie, I'd barely managed to brush my teeth.  Feeling energetic and upbeat, I cleaned my bathroom, vacuumed my floor, folded and put away a load of laundry, and just went around picking things up and putting them away.  I put on makeup too, thinking to myself, for once I might not look like hell when I have a baby.  At Tim's suggestion, I plugged in the camcorder and got the tripod out of a closet and put it in my room.

She came that morning around 10 or so, checked me and said I was 4 cm, but could "easily stretch" to 5, and my cervix seemed very ripe.  She said that it was still very thick, only 20% effaced, but that could change very quickly once the contractions really picked up and got consistent.  We chatted for a little while, and I told her how my plan for that day had been to take Annie out to lunch alone, like I had taken her sister out alone a couple days earlier.  I was debating, not on whether I should leave the house, but whether I should only take Annie.  Delaney knew of my plan, and even though she understood she'd already had a turn on Saturday, she was very sad at the idea of being left at home.  I was feeling very mushy about the two of them, and wanting everybody to be happy, so I considered maybe we should all go somewhere.  I was still going back and forth on what I should do even as Sherry went out to her truck to bring some of her supplies back into the house.  Sherry's only opinion was that wherever I go, I should stay "this side of New Bern", meaning don't cross the bridge.  She told me to call her with an update whenever the contractions "picked up."

In the end, I felt it was very important that I get the alone time with Annie.  Delaney was happy at the idea of painting while we were gone.  After Sherry left, Tim Sr said to me, "Are you still going?"  Having been updated by Sherry, I think he was a little unsure whether I should be going anywhere.  I said, "Yeah, I've got to get out of here."  He asked me if I minded if he called Karen to give her an update.  I told her I didn't mind, but I said, "Tell her not to hold her breath."  I might have sounded a little surly.  I had been feeling like everyone, including people I didn't even know, were watching me and waiting for me to pop out a baby.  And I didn't want to get anyone's expectations up over nothing.

I'm so glad that I ended up having my little date with Annie, my last baby.  We went to Subway and had a nice leisurely lunch, where she would take a bite of her sandwich in exchange for another one of my chips.  She shared her apple slices with me, and I just enjoyed her sweet, funny, two-year-old self so much.  I didn't think much about the contractions, or time them, but during some of them I had to breathe and sway slightly on my seat.  Otherwise, I ate over half my foot-long roast beef sub, and was feeling pretty good.

We went to Food Lion, which was right next door, and I picked a small cart that she insisted on pushing around herself.  I tried not to be obvious about guiding it from the front because pushing it all by herself made her feel like a big girl.  I picked some fruit, cheese and crackers, enough to possibly share with any friends we might have over at the house later.  I also got the juice and cereal that we were out of.

Driving home, I had some contractions that were hard to ignore, and I just breathed through them.  I wasn't really timing them but they were about six or seven minutes apart.

I got home just in time for nap time.  Annie invited Grandpa to story time (he's always invited, but sometimes one or the other of the girls will tell him, "Grandpa, come to storytime.").  The girls each picked me to read their story.  I believe I read Spot's Baby Sister and Clifford's Ice Cream Mess.   I tried to keep my voice normal as I felt another contraction.  The stories were very short, though, and by 1:00,  Annie was settled into her room for nap, and Delaney was upstairs for her quiet time.  I told Tim Sr I would try to take a nap of my own.  I had barely slept the night before, so I really hoped to get some rest.

I opted to call the birth photographer first.  First, some background on her:  I researched birth photographers in the area, and she was pretty much it, even though she was an hour away in Jacksonville.  She was recommended to me, and I saw her website and liked her work.  And I really wanted a photographer for this birth, mostly because Tim wouldn't be there.  We talked and she agreed to do it.  A couple weeks ago, she emailed me saying that she was "officially on call" for my birth, but that a family situation had come up that might require her to drive to Virginia Beach to stay for a couple days on Sunday and Monday (the 24th and 25th).  She said to call her as soon as I thought I was in labor, and she would hurry the three hours to my house just as fast as she could make arrangements for the kids.  I rolled my eyes, and said, "Of course, that means I'm having the baby on Sunday or Monday.  It's a prophecy!"  I told myself not to get upset about this.  Sherry and Debbie, the assistant midwife, had both told me they'd be happy to snap photos with Sherry's camera or my camera.  I would have pictures one way or another.

I didn't know when to call her because I didn't know if I was really in labor or not.  And if the family situation was important enough for her to drive there in the first place, why would she then want to drop everything and drive the three hours back before she'd planned on leaving?  In the end, I decided to give her a call, and tell her I thought maybe her "prophecy" was being fulfilled.  She was like, "Oh no, really?"  She said, "I've never missed a birth, and I thought, this is just a day and a half I'll be gone.."  Ha.  We talked for a little while and I told her how I was feeling (she's also a doula by trade), and that, by the way, I was having another contraction.  She said, "It sounds to me like you're in early labor since you can still talk through it, and I've known early labor to last as long as a couple days.  With your history, it could change quickly, though."  I told her that's pretty much what Sherry had said.  She suggested that if the contractions were keeping me from getting rest, I could take a warm bath and that could slow things down enough for me to be able to take a nice nap.  She said she'd be on her way back the next morning, and that she could have her husband drop her off here if I wanted.  We ended the conversation with me promising to keep her posted, although I figured that by the time I knew it was time, it would be too late.

Right after I got off the phone with her, Tim called.  That was at 1:26, I know, thanks to my iPhone.  His ship was in port at Souda Bay, Crete for repairs, and he was seven hours ahead of us.  I told him about my conversation with the doula, and he helped me time the contractions, which abruptly became closer together.  He said to me, "You realize you're having contractions three minutes apart, right?  Do you think you should call Sherry?"  I said I'd call her and give her the update, although I wasn't sure if I wanted her to come over yet.  He said he'd call me back in 10 minutes.

I called Sherry at 1:38 and told her the contractions had picked up but I didn't think I needed her yet.  Before Tim had had the chance to call me back again, I changed my mind and called Sherry again.  "Yeah, I think you'd better get here."

Tim called me again at 1:49, and I put him on speaker phone so I could begin moving and doing what I needed to do through the now intense contractions.  I felt the burning in my thighs, hips and lower back that I remembered all too well.  Sherry walked in within 10 minutes, and as soon as I saw her kind, compassionate face, I burst into tears.  I felt so overwhelmed all of a sudden, like this is really it, oh-my-god, I don't know if I can do this..  "I don't know why I'm crying," I sobbed.  Sherry hugged me and said that crying is a "good release."  Debbie came in shortly after, and the two of them busied themselves with getting the birth pool filled up.  I went to get one of the "laborade" popsicles I'd made a couple weeks before, and as I walked back to the room, Tim Sr said, "I guess you're not taking a nap after all!"  I said, "No, no nap for me for awhile."  Debbie rubbed my lower back during contractions, and helped me sway and move my hips like Elvis to try to wiggle the baby down.  I was grateful for her strong, expert touch, but becoming increasingly uncomfortable.
I didn't know what position to get in to make these contractions bearable.  I just wanted to get in the pool, but it was taking so long to fill up!  I said, "I'm going to the shower."  I changed into my bathing suit top and got in.  For a few minutes, I liked the shower, bracing myself against the side during contractions, and letting the warm water hit my lower back.  Soon I noticed that I was feeling "pushy," grunting and bearing down a little at the peak of a contraction.  Then I decided I hated the shower and had to get out.

Tim was still on the phone, waiting in the bedroom.  Sherry told me he'd said he'd be right there waiting while I did whatever I needed to do.

Finally, the tub was ready and I got in.  Karen, the assistant midwife's daughter, was taking pictures nearly constantly with my camera, and the first picture of me in the tub is at 3:07.  Oh, the sweet relief of that hot water.  The laborade popsicles were a must, too, and I had three altogether.  I kept asking for more.  They are made out of fresh lemon juice, honey, a couple of crushed calcium-magnesium tablets, and water.  I got the recipe from a friend who recently had a homebirth.  I wasn't in the mood to talk much, just vocalizing through the contractions, and resting in between.  I could hear Sherry talking to Tim from time to time, letting him know what I was doing, and I was so glad she did that.
Sherry's listening to the baby's heart, and I'm not sure what Debbie's doing, maybe she had just been rubbing my back during a contraction.
Soon after I got in the tub, I heard her tell him, "She's starting to push."  She hadn't checked me for dilation once since she'd arrived that afternoon.  She had already told me she can tell how dilated a woman is by how she behaves.  She'd only told me to push when the urge became overwhelming.

At first, I pushed in that same position you see me in the picture above, holding onto the side of the pool.  But Sherry said I wasn't giving the baby enough room to come out, but when I raised myself up more, I was no longer in the soothing water up to my waist.  The pool could have been filled up more, but they opted not to.  Later I understood why.  If the water was much higher, it would have been hard to hold Timmy's head out of it after he was born.  Sherry suggested I sit back against the side, and that's what I did.  My pushes weren't making much progress because my water bag was still intact.  I said, "I wish it would break!"  Sherry said, "Me too!"  At last it did.  Sherry said, "Good, the fluid's clear."

Once my water broke, I felt Timmy moving down, but I was still impatient with how long it was taking.  I said, "I wish he'd move faster!"  Or something like that, I'll have to watch the video at some point.  My camcorder was on a tripod recording the whole thing.  Sherry said, "You can tell him that while you're kissing him."  Then she told me to reach down and feel his head and see how close he was.  I felt, and thought the top of his head felt mushy.  I could have left my hand down there to help him emerge, but instead I opted to grab the handles on the birth pool with both hands, leaving that to Sherry.  I started to think, this is really happening.  I'm going to have my baby right here in this room, soon!

Then he was crowning, and I moaned and yelled, "It-hurts-it-hurts-it-hurts!"  Sherry said, "I know, Rachael, I know!"  Then I heard Sherry and Debbie exclaim, "His head is out!"  Sherry called out the news in the direction of the phone.  I could hear Tim telling me what a great job I was doing.  It took a little while for the rest of him to come out because as Sherry  explained later, he'd had his hand and elbow wanting to come out next, instead of a shoulder.  She also said that he came down the birth canal with his hand next to his head, and that may have accounted for why I had some difficulty pushing him out.  All I know is it hurt like heck, all those body parts trying to come out of me at once.  I thought I made some godawful noises during that time, even though they all swear I was so quiet.  I guess the video will tell the truth, whenever I get around to watching it.

At last I felt the whole of him wiggle out with help from Sherry, and she had me take him from her and up out of the water.  I felt awe and disbelief, and above all, gratitude, and I said, "Thank you, God!"  I cried and said all kinds of stuff I don't remember.  Sherry said, "Tim, you have a son!"  Timmy began crying and "pinking up."  He was born at 3:30, an hour and 41 minutes after Tim called me the second time.
The next several minutes are a blur.  They brought the phone closer, and Tim and I continued to talk, and he listened to his baby boy crying from 6000 miles away.  It was a VERY distant next best thing to him being there, but I'll take it.  I can't believe how good his timing was, knowing just when to call.  (Or perhaps Timmy was waiting for him to call before deciding it was time to come out?)  And I'm so glad that with the sketchy communications on the ship, he was able to stay on the phone with me all that time.  It was such a gift.  Sometimes men are notified by the Family Readiness Officer after the fact.  It's all a matter of timing, since the command makes every effort to get the men notified and in contact with their wives as soon as anyone knows anything.  But email doesn't always work and phone doesn't always work.  Sometimes email and phone are not allowed even if they work.  Being able to talk to him eased the pain of him not being there, although I would come to miss him intensely in the next hours and days.
After I'd delivered the placenta, they helped me out of that big old pool and into bed.  There I continued to talk to Tim while nursing Timmy for the first time.
Tim and I finally hung up, and after his first feeding, it was time for Timmy to be evaluated.  After being wrapped up all snugly against my chest, he wasn't appreciating this at all.
Next, we had his big sisters and Grandpa come in and meet him.
A little while later, while Sherry and Debbie were tending to Mama, Timmy got to go out to the living room to bond with them some more.
What an amazing day.  What a lot changed in just a short few hours.  Here are a couple more pictures of Timmy with his adoring big sisters.
Now we have these three beautiful kids!  

Thursday, July 28, 2011

4 months down, 6 to go

I'm missing him more than ever these days..

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

He's here!

Timothy Francis III was born on Monday, July 25 at 3:30 p.m.  He weighed 8 pounds, 3 ounces and is 21 1/2 inches long.  He is doing great, healthy as can be.  I'm relaxing and enjoying him.  I will post the story when I can.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

While we wait

My father-in-law Tim Sr arrived a week ago tomorrow, and this was cause for relief for me for many reasons.  For one thing, it meant no more solo trips to the commissary for me for several weeks.  It also meant that little Timmy now had the green light to make his appearance at any time, and everyone seems to expect that he will any minute.  I get a call from my husband every day now, and the first words out of his mouth are, "Have you had the baby yet?"  Today, when I recognized his number, I answered the phone with, "No!"  But I am enjoying the daily phone calls from him anyway.

Timmy doesn't seem to be in any hurry to come out, so fortunately, we've had many other things to keep us busy while we wait.  We've had the commissary, of course, dinners with friends, and Delaney's "summer camp" three mornings a week, to name a few things.

It was nice and cool  (high 80s instead of high 90s) out for a few days last week, and we went to the park one day.
Another day we went to my friend Aimee's neighborhood pool, and that was lots of fun until Delaney got stung by a bee.

video
Today after dinner we had another mini-celebration for Delaney's birthday.  I was a little worried that it wouldn't meet her expectations, or would pale in comparison to the little party we had in Florida, but it turned out I had nothing to worry about at all.  Delaney was delighted with every little thing -- the balloons that we attempted to stick to the wall but ended up all over the floor; the pretty plates that Grandpa got from the dollar store; and helping me frost and sprinkle her white cake with strawberry icing.  I forget how little it really takes to please this child, despite the long list of wants that she regales me with from the backseat of the car.
Next, we went out to the living room, where Delaney opened presents from Grandma and Grandpa.  Annie got to open the one present that was for both of them, a Hallmark recordable Disney Princess book read by Grandma.  It was very sweet, and they both love it.  Delaney got new Minnie Mouse underwear (great since she is outgrowing the first set I bought her); a set of bat, ball and glove; a Clifford book (we love Clifford!); and some drawing toy, I forget what.
Next it was time to unveil Daddy's present.  I couldn't wait to see how she would like it.  It was a brand new big girl bike!  Delaney took to it right away, no hesitation.  She hopped on and pedaled off down the driveway.  With Grandpa's coaching, she learned how to brake and how to steer, and by the end of an hour or so on the driveway, she was a pro.
Up until this moment, Annie had been fine with it being Delaney's birthday, and being "second banana."  That all changed with the appearance of that shiny new bike.  I told Annie that Daddy wanted her to have this nice new helmet to wear while riding her "new to you" tricycle.  She was not happy with that, not even a little bit.  She did put on the helmet, but she refused to have anything to do with Delaney's old tricycle, even though she had attempted to ride it many times before, and was now the perfect size for it.  She straddled Delaney's new bike and wouldn't budge, saying, "My bike," until Grandpa picked her up.  She cried and snarled her frustration, lunging at me in anger, the one who dared to insult her with her sister's old tricycle.  Delaney tried to console her with, "That is really a pretty new helmet, Annie." 
"I'll take the new helmet AND the new bike, thank you very much."
I sympathize with her, I really do.  Sometimes it's hard to be the little sister (though I wouldn't really know).  In the coming years, she will have more hand-me-downs than she ever wanted, and she'll see Timmy getting brand new things just because he's a boy.  Unfortunately for her, I don't see a good reason to buy two girly tricycles, two 14-inch little girl bikes, etc.  Maybe I could have disguised the old trike with a paint job and new streamers, maybe a bike horn and a reflector.  I don't know.  She'll get over it.  I hope.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

A visit from Auntie Grace

This summer is so much the opposite of last summer for me.  Last summer I was all over the place visiting family.   This summer everyone is coming to me.  Last week was my sister Grace.  At 21, Grace is the second-to-youngest of the five of us siblings.  She has been extremely busy with nursing school and her job, but somehow she ended up with no school in July, and she was able to get her shifts covered at work for a few days to come help me out.

Grace got here late last Tuesday night, and she stayed until the following Monday afternoon.

On Wednesday morning while I was out, she and the girls tried out this recipe for making your own finger paint, that I had found  a few days before.  It turned out pretty well, although for the most part, they preferred using paintbrushes to using their fingers.
That same day, my midwife made a home visit, and Grace got to see how the birth pool is set up.  When I saw how long it took Sherry to inflate it, I opted to just leave it that way, storing it on its side next to the bed.  It is way bigger than I'd pictured.  Grace thought the words on the side, "Birth Pool in a Box," were funny.  She said, "Let's fill it up and sit in it tonight!"  We didn't, only because I'd have to replace the one-time use disposable liner that's in it.  I know I'm a party pooper.

Also that day, we got to Skype with Tim, whose ship made a three-day stop at Palma de Majorca, a Spanish island and big vacation spot for Europeans.  He described it as Destin, FL in Europe -- pretty much the beach and not much else.  Tim is not a big beach person, but I think he enjoyed getting to stay off the ship in a nice hotel.  Just like last time, it was so nice to get to talk to him face to face, but it did make me miss him more.  The girls are not the best at carrying on conversations on Skype, but they were pretty happy to see their daddy.  They were very amused when he would press a nostril, or eyeball, or open mouth up to the camera too.
The next day, we spent the morning at the beach.  
She was only this happy for 5 minutes, and she was a grouch the rest of the time.
We did some shopping Saturday morning, and I got the girls some new shoes.
We went out to dinner, and then a walk around downtown and, of course, a stop at Cow Cafe for ice cream.
Last picture of me and just my girls?
The girls loved the piggyback rides.
The night before she left, we had the misfortune of the air-conditioning breaking.  It was funny at first, because I'm always so hot anyway and Grace isn't.  I gave her and Sophie a hard time for wearing sweaters into the grocery store while we were in Florida.  Like a couple of little old ladies, they were.  

We'd just had hamburgers on the George Foreman grill, and had made fries in the oven.  So when it felt really warm afterward, we assumed it was because the oven had just been at 450 degrees.  But as I felt warmer and warmer, I started saying things like, "I'm not turning on that oven again for three months."  Then I went and looked at the thermostat.  "Grace, it's set to 75, but it's at 80 right now.  A couple hours ago, it was set to 78 and the temp was 76.  How do you figure that?"  She said she felt fine, and didn't believe that temperature could be right.  Then I went upstairs, looked at the thermostat there, and yelled down, "Hey, Grace!  It's set to 75 up here, but it's 89!  I think the AC's broken."  She said, "I think your thermostats are broken."

It turned out I was right, and not just having another prego hot-flash.  We would end up doing without air-conditioning for about 36 hours in this house.  We toughed it out the first night, but by the following afternoon, I accepted the offer of a friend to stay at her house.  It was an unbearably hot and exhausting couple of days for me.

Grace took this picture of me looking spectacularly awful that first night with no AC.  I am only posting it here because I think it's hilarious, not because I think it flatters me in any way.  The cold pack helped a lot.  Then I went to bed hugging one of the frozen margaritas in a bag my mother-in-law left while she was here.  It fit perfectly in the same sleeve as the cold pack.  Thanks, Carolyn!
Grace was such a huge help to me while she was here -- cleaning up after dinner, giving the girls baths, running errands, allowing me to go on my errands alone, and just doing whatever she could to make my life a little easier.  And at the end of the night, we'd watch episodes of Criminal Minds that I'd saved on my DVR, but been too scared to watch alone.  I sure miss her.

Friday, July 8, 2011

My big 4-year-old

Delaney knows that her birthday is in July, but she doesn't know it's today.  It's going to be hard to restrain myself from saying, "Happy birthday!" but I'll be giving her a few extra hugs, both from me and from her daddy who misses her terribly.  This day means so much to us, the day that Delaney came into our world and turned it upside down.
We already celebrated her birthday in May, together with Annie's, and I thought that would be the end of it.  But on one of the last days in June, when I said it was almost July, her eyes lit up and she said, "My birthday is in July!"  I said, "That's right, it is."  So we'll be having another little celebration.  We're going to wait until Tim Sr gets here on the 14th.  We'll probably do it the following Sunday. 

She will get a new bike with training wheels from Daddy.  Right now I'm trying to decide between a 14-inch bike and a 16-inch one.  I think I'll have to look and see which one I think will fit her best.  She's outgrown her tricycle (funny, since she only got good at riding it just in the last year!), and now she has trouble riding it because her legs are way too long for it.  I think it's time to pass the trike on to Annie.  So that Annie gets a little something new too (which normally would not be a concern, but this year I did already celebrate their birthdays together), I will get her her own helmet.

Other than that, she'll have cake, ice cream, a few balloons, and I'm sure she will be a happy girl.
Wow, it's been four years of Delaney, already. . At 4, she is as sweet, curious, good-natured, creative, and funny as ever.

Here are some of her favorite things in no particular order:

She loves to play pretend games.  She's always instructing Annie and me on what we are pretending at any given time.  "Mama, you be the mama elephant and we'll be the babies."  Or frogs, or puppies, or kitties.  We play "babysitter" with her baby doll, Baby Violet.  Sometimes she wants to pretend that she and Annie have just been born, and she says, "Mama, what do you want to name your newborn babies?"  If I tell her "Delaney and Annalise," she approves.  But lately, I've been saying, "How about Harry and Rufus?"

She loves to play in the sand and water, and I wish I had the energy to take her every day to the beach or to a pool.  In the pool, she jumps in with just her floaty wings on.  

She loves the little animals she finds around the yard or neighborhood.  She loves to hold them and look at them, and she cries when she has to let them go.  I feel bad for making her let them go, but I want to teach her that the animals' home is outside, and she can look at them and enjoy them for a little while, but then let them go.
She loves to paint pictures, and lately her pictures have gotten so good.  I can tell what they are!  She made a picture of a turtle that was really cute and colorful the other day, and I like her smiley faces too.  It's a great way to pass the time on a hot afternoon.
She was painting and telling a story.
She likes patterns and things that rhyme.  She'll say something like, "Red, white, red, white -- that's a pattern, right, Mama?"  She'll try out a couple words together and say, "Do they rhyme?"  Sometimes they do, and sometimes they come nowhere close to rhyming, but they're related in some other way.

Today I'm looking back at all the memories of Delaney from the past four years, and looking with happiness and gratitude at the beautiful child she is inside and out.  I can't wait to see what changes in her the next year will bring.

A year ago today: Delaney's 3rd birthday photo montage
A year ago today: 3 years